Let me explain...

Hello everyone I hope you’re all doing well…

So lets face it, for a while now I’ve been doing less and less on my blog and I’ve noticed that I’ve started falling out of love with it- I don’t have the same enthusiasm for it anymore and I’m just not as happy with the content as I would like to be!

I barely have an excuse for not posting on my blog, but all I can say is I have been juggling lots of different things at once at the moment and sometimes I struggle to manage my time and have a good balance. instead I become overwhelmed and then I end up avoiding the things that I was meant to do.

So what am I going to do about this?

I’m going to start posting on my blog every week or even more if I can as I feel like this will help me to get back into a routine with my blogging.

I’m also going to start planing my posts and putting more time and effort into them, I will only post them if I am completely happy with them. 

I want to post more of my own photography and pictures, I use to do this all the time however I have found myself doing it less and less recently, I feel like posting my own photography in my posts makes it more personal and readable.

Finally I want to concentrate on growing my readers by interacting with more bloggers on social media- I am already in a few blogger groups and I want to start being more active in them!

I hope you guys are still around and ready for lots of new posts as I sure am! 

Writing blog posts use to be an escape and a way of expressing myself but unfortunately over time it became a chore..I thought I would explain this to you guys and just let you know that I am honestly going to change this.

Today I have just had a chilled day tidying my room, relaxing in the bath and chilling with chad, including going on a nice walk (we love walks) 

Here's a few photo's of my tidy room! As tidy as it gets with all my stuff in it!

That's all for now and I will 100% be back with another post soon!

A welcoming into the working world! (my apprenticeship)

So you may recall me mentioning the fact that I was soon to be starting my new apprenticeship with the city of Lincoln council, I started on Wednesday the 13th of July (a few days ago) and despite all the changes I am facing I have been thoroughly enjoying it so far, and I am so happy that I went with my gut feeling to go forward with the apprenticeship!

My first day was blur, a stressful, surreal blur.. It wasn't really I just thought I wold insert a mean girls quote...

My first day... I was so nervous as I had to wait in reception to be collected and then taken to my office and for me waiting just makes it 10 times worse, it's just a way of building up the suspension and adrenaline! I am so lucky as I've been placed in an office with only a few other people (who are so lovely and welcoming) I have already done all-sorts of tasks and so far I have NO REGRETS about my decision to leave school! The work I've been doing is so interesting and also rewarding!

It is weird, not being treated like a student anymore, instead a colleague, a member of staff! I feel as if I am already learning and gaining much more relevant information and skills that I will/have learnt in school, this is just my opinion and I am aware that everyone learns in different ways, but if you are doubting whether to do an apprenticeship (as long as it's something you are very interested in) then I would say go for it!

The other new aspects of starting work are the early mornings and getting buses all the time. For someone who is use to waking up at 7/7:30 on a week day these 6:20 starts have taken a bit of getting use to, as well as getting buses all the time! Although it sounds as if I'm complaining, I am glad that I am starting to become even more independent and gaining experience of what the working world is like.

A part of me will miss the school environment and all the holidays you get there, but as I have now repeated several times I am so happy with my first proper job/apprenticeship, I have already found out so many interesting facts and talked to lots of interesting people as well as being warmly welcomed and settling in nicely.

One more thing is that as you may know I have struggled with anxiety over the last few years and even though I still sometimes find myself in a state over silly things, I have gone into my new job with confidence, pride and an open mind and I feel like in a way I have left a lot of anxiety, doubt and shyness at school! A new start is always a great opportunity to become more confident and discover yourself!

Sorry for the long rambley post but I thought I would give you an update on what I've been doing!

Tied down..

Until more recent times I've never experienced the feeling of being completely tied down by something, having two horses, two houses to go to, a relationship, school and the everyday busyness of life never gave me the feeling of exhaustion and being overwhelmed. At the moment I get to points where I find myself losing the will to even look at any form of revision; contemplating whether to just become a recluse and just live a simple, minimalist life. No more revision, no more countless hours of getting your head around something that you need for ONE, single exam and then never again! But then I think of my future, how i thrive off of hard work, doing well and feeling like I have successfully achieved my goals. It will be worth it.

I hate the whole concept of the educational system, how it is drilled into us that we must all get amazing grades, do A levels (or the equivalent) and then go off to university, and unless we do that then 'we won't succeed in life, we'll never have enough money or get a good job.' It's so wrong. Although times have thoroughly changed, I know several people that have good, well payed jobs that went against the status quo, went down a different, more suited path and have succeeded and achieved what they wanted. Today, they want us to be sheep, no individuality; to them we're nothing but statistical figures, percentages. Labels.

I don't really know where this blog post is going, it's really just my views after doing a solid 6 hours of revision today, but I can really emphasise to the millions of people across the world who feel like  they seem to be living at their computer desk, falling asleep to facts and figures- revision whizzing around. I know how you feel. Unless you're one of those people who can just take everything in instantaneously and therefore have no need for revision; I really envy you!

I find that taking little breaks helps me to get through the drag of revision, going for a run ( if i have the energy), watching some TV, eating food is always a good one, seeing your friends! There are ways to get through it and for me thinking of the end result is the prime one! I have to keep myself motivated.

I hope everyone's having a nice holiday and if you've been revising make sure you take some time for yourself.

A good old catch up!

Hi guys, a chatty post for tonight so be prepared, i hope everyone had a nice valentines day; whether you spent it alone watching films and indulging, eating chocolates, or with your boyfriend/girlfriend. Me and Chad went to handmade burger and had a lovely time- I of course managed to set my napkin alight by unnoticeably placing it on our tea light, i suddenly saw a huge flame out the corner of my eye and i unhelpfully reacted by just alerting Chad about it! which was quite amusing, haha whoops- it resulted with this:

It was such a laugh and we had some lovely food- Thanks Handmade burger for having such a good Gluten free menu!

I was also very lucky and received some beautiful flowers and some Lindor chocolates(Love you Chad)

So back in November i put up a post called 'Deciding what's next!' this was about the decision i had made about what i thought i wanted to do after finishing school and the steps i had taken to decide that; however since then i have completely changed my mind, put things more in to perspective and discovered what i really want to do!

At that time i was adamant that i wanted to do the Health and Social course at college, heading down the science root. Looking back, i never truly wanted to take science any further after GCSE (as triple science has put me off for life.) Previously when asking for advice about what to do next, the most received bit of advice I've had was 'follow your heart and do what you love' for ages i didn't know what i loved and wanted to pursue as a career- but it turns out i was looking to far away! After several people had asked me ' Is it Journalism you're wanting to go into Lauryn, as I've seen your blog?' i realised how much i love and enjoy writing and i could instantly see myself working within Journalism!

Since then i have looked further into what qualifications i would require, and this is the alternative root of taking A levels- which i am very eager to do now! I am hoping to take English Lit/Lang, Media, Sociology, and French! I looked round Christ Hospital school and all being well i am going there to do my A levels, i wanted to move from William Farr as after 5 years i am in need of a change of scenery and people, the thought of a new start is an exciting concept for me!

As an aspiring Journalist, my blog is a great thing for me as it allows me to write, express my feelings, experiences, views and opinions all in one place; which is a skill that is definitely necessary for a Journalist.

For those of you still unsure about what you want to do at the end of this year and for a career i would say 3 things,

• Rule out anything you 100% don't want to do, or certain conditions that you don't want to work in (e.g. working in an office)
• Look at what you love doing, your interests and your strengths
• Do what you want to do, not what everyone else wants you to do- remember it's your life!

Enjoy your half term break whatever you get up to!